Shallow Life

Covers:

2009 cover

2009 cover

2010 Deluxe cover

2010 Deluxe cover

Release formats:

2009 – CD album
2009 – CD album ‘Special Edition’. Includes Oblivion as 13th track.
2009 – Vinyl album
2010 – CD album ‘Deluxe Edition’. Includes additional CD (see below)

Lyrics:

1. Survive / 3:34

Sometimes I feel alone in a million crowd
an outsider wandering alone without
any words to say
they can’t explain
the desire to overcome the pain
feel the breath that’s always getting away
Am I dreaming it all?
I will never be afraid

I’ll survive in this nothing, leading nowhere
I survive, feeling strong for how much longer?
I’ll survive in this nothing, leading nowhere
I survive

A voice inside of me
that keeps on teasing
as sweet as like a whisper from the lips of pain
and so many steps that I can’t make
I can’t take the chance, release the brake
and the breath just keeps on getting away
Am I dreaming it all?
I will never be afraid

2. I Wont Tell You / 3:47

I cannot tell you you’re falling apart
open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
but I won’t tell you, I won’t tell you

I can’t leave this, I am fine inside it
I don’t feel bliss and I just keep hiding
I’ve been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
sometimes naked truth is what I don’t believe in

I cannot tell you you’re falling apart
open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
but I won’t tell you, I won’t tell you
I cannot get so deep into this now
I can’t admit that I know what I know and
I want to tell you your love is a lie
I won’t tell you I won’t tell you

It’s hard to hear through the static again
it’s never clear untill the rush of pain
I’ll never tell you I’m living a lie
in this confusion I feel alive
I’ve been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
sometimes naked truth is what I can’t believe in

don’t ever tell me I’m falling apart
don’t ever tell me I will not survive
don’t ever tell me this love is a lie
cause I’m the lie, I’m the liar

3. Not Enough / 3:40

I don’t want to be saved, I wanna go down with you
Together we will find a way to come back

I thought it was too late
I thought you disappeared
Its been a while since I believed in you
I used to have the strength
I used to just walk away
But now that I see you
It’s not enough

I’m falling once again
I’m following the way
Nothing’s changed since I believed in you
I knew that you would come
I thought that I’d be afraid
But now that I have you
Its not enough

Forgotten fears I throw away
All of the caution out into the wind
My soul is thirsty
And I’m dreaming of you
Get out of my mind (come back)

I don’t want to be saved, I wanna go down with you
Together we will find a way to come back
I don’t want to be saved, I wanna give in to you
Together we will find a way to come back

4. I'm Not Afraid / 3:22

Watch your back
because I am coming closer – shivers down your spine
you were not expecting me – how does it feel
to be faced in your territory? – are you afraid to see me here?

I’m not afraid – to take my time, to live my life
the way I want to
I’m not afraid
to take you down and live my life as I want to
I’m not afraid

Closer but apart
no one else can hear us
get out of that car
did you wanna leave without me?
how does it feel to be faced in your territory?
are you surprised to see me here?

5. I Like It / 3:42

everything is different today
I like it, like it
I feel very different today
I like it, like it

I’m not gonna be in your parade
cause I don’t like it
you think I’m a dirty little game
you think I like it
you made up this fantasy with me
but I don’t like it
I want you to get away from me
that’s how I like it
how do you like it?

today I’m gonna fly
there’s nothing that can keep me on the ground
touch the sky
I’m free inside

you think you’re the master, I’m the slave
you think I like it
you don’t even know me anyway
that’s how I like it
I’m getting ready to move on
but you don’t like it
you can kiss your fairy tale away
I like it, like it
how do you like it

I’m free to do what I like
I’m celebrating my life
I’m free to be what I like
I’m celebrating my life
I’m gonna get what I like
I’m gonna celebrate ’till I die
I’m celebrating my life

6. Underdog / 3:40

You are going down
Down
At the bottom I have found
I cannot wait to get back in the fight
And send you straight to the ground
Hide and seeking
When I’m on the ropes
You wanna knock me down, knock me out – Your cheap shots are denied
You’re going down now – You can’t kill my soul and kill my dream
Back down
Now – You will understand me now
You don’t want to come back to the fight
I’ve been the underdog all my life
I can feel it
I will not stop until I see you down
On the ground – Cause I am still alive

7. The Pain / 4:00

I wake up to a smoking gun
the evidence is in your head
there’s no proof of guilt or innocence
I’m finished with you taking me through
a line of questioning that feeds you
I must confess I’m here to kill the pain

to kill the pain
what can I do?
how hard I fight
no matter how
how long I’ve tried

the sword of justice in your hand
you cut me down, sharp like a blade
you make me want to never trust again
I’m finished with you draging me through
more lies and deceipt that feeds you
I must confess I’m here to kill the pain

doesn’t matter, if it mattered
I would never have tried
to save us both from losing our minds
doesn’t matter if you shatter me now
I have to get away
the rain comes
the rain comes
nothing’s gonna buy you time
the rain comes
the rain comes
you know it’s gonna come

8. Spellbound / 3:21

Burning here in my room
Feeling that
The walls are moving closer
Sight and seen
The dark takes me
Leads me to
The ending of another day
I’m haunted

Tell me who you are
I am spellbound – You cannot have this control of me
Everywhere I go
I am spellbound
I will break the spell you put on me

Velvet drapes, glowing candles
Silent whispers
Of words inside of my head
The nighttime comes – It waits for me
Leads me to
The ending of another day
I’m haunted

9. Wide Awake / 3:51

The rebel inside
a mind of my own
I haven’t felt right
since the moment that I gave up
I challenged my limits
I’m feeling I’m becoming limitless
I take it all in and inhale

I’m wide awake
I open my eyes and the sky is so blue
all of a sudden
I know that I treasure my life
I find myself
wide awake – like you

the struggle within
now I understand
freedom begins
when you get out of the cage you built
It looks like I’m crazy but I’m not the only one
to believe in myself, believe in myself
I won’t be coming undone – cause I feel like

10. The Maze / 3:51

My thoughts can be so vicious
committed to a plan
the fear becomes ambitious
taking me till I am gone
I don’t know how it started
beating up myself
I’ve come to realize
I barely carry on each day
this life is so destructive
it’s blowing out my mind
my breath is running short
I’m lost here
(deep inside)

In this maze
I’m running through th e halls of emptyness
In this maze
I can’t find a way to get back to the end
In this maze
I’m feeling like I’m stuck inside a cage
In this maze
I won’t feel the breeze ’till I break this maze and run

I don’t know how it started
thinking to my self
I’ve come to realize
I couldn’t carry on each day
this vibe is so destructive
I’m smoking up my mind
so by the time she left
I was lost here – (deep inside)

will I ever see the sun
shining through the prison clouds
In the darkness you can hide
go inside, free your mind

11. Unchained / 3:22

There is nothing up ahead
Or down the road
The streets won’t last forever
There is nothing left to loose
I cannot see
Myself inside this dream
I know
Nothing lasts forever – Nothing lasts forever

unchained
I’m like a bullet set free now
Unchained
I’m like a weapon unleased now

Now I’ve found my way
To solid ground
I left behind the feeling
That I’ve been a fool
I feel much stronger now
I am not the same
You know
Nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever

12. Shallow Life / 4:00

I never thought I’d be the soldier
I take my place inside the battle
I’ve come to realize the journey is over
realize that life is sober

everyday I’m like a soldier
waking up within the battle
and through the haze I live a dream that’s better
than what I feel inside
diggin’ in me
suffering darkness in my eyes
against the light of Rome
I see the reflection of the ghost that I’ve become
waiting behind the windows
I resign to be alone
I want to feel alone
and lost in this solitude

shallow life
I’ll stay close to the ground
shallow life
the walls keep falling down
I close my eyes
I’ll find my way around
in the shallow life
welcome to the bottom line

suffering darkness in my eyes
against the night of Rome
I get confused and all I hear is just myself
I will resign and search for peace of mind
I’m on my own
I need to be alone
and lost in this solitude

13. The Last Goodbye / 4:16 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

whatever you did to me
you gotta tell me now!
why do we look like strangers?
whatever I did to you
no excuses for this silence
tell me what you’re thinking!
I’ll be there for you

so many stories told
too many useless words
maybe because It’s getting dark inside

this is the last goodbye
these broken dreams have been resigned
here is to our last goodnight
these broken dreams have been resigned

will this set us both free?
you gotta tell me what you are thinking
cause I just don’t understand it
whatever I did to you
no excuses for this silence
tell me what you’re thinking!
I’ll be listening

(Solo Chris)

why should I care when it will be alright
on seperate ways, we’ll feel alive again
so many stories told
too many useless words
maybe because It’s getting dark inside

14. Leaving Alone / 4:09 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Here today, I think I must have changed my mind
as I’m looking at things from a different side
I get up and fight off, the guilt last night
pushing back the fear
I will be my guide no one by my side
the only road, just me myself and I

I’m leaving alone tonight
I’m leaving the trust behind
I’m leaving alone tonight
I’m leaving it all behind

let the journey start, I finally freed myself
from the jealousy and revenge I have felt
I got out in time and I’m moving fine
I’ll live to tell the tale
I will be my guide, no one by my side
this fearless road, just me myself and I

I can’t awake this, it has slowly faded
you have made me feel so understated
this is the hurt that you have knowingly created
we have now become so overrated

15. Oblivion / 4:09 (On 2009 Special Edition and 2010 Deluxe Edition)

It’s a fairy tale and the story is out of date
nothing that I haven’t tried to say
you know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
you know that this life is crazy
I will need some help

there’s a place far below
the darkness deep within
it’s a place, I don’t belong
come set me free from this oblivion

all inside of me
on the edge of agony
nothing left for me that I can fake
you know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
you know that this life is crazy
I will need some help

(Solo Chris)

and I keep wandering away
I’m so deep in disarray

16. Spellbound (Acoustic) / 2:52 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Burning here in my room
Feeling that
The walls are moving closer
Sight and seen
The dark takes me
Leads me to
The ending of another day
I’m haunted

Tell me who you are
I am spellbound – You cannot have this control of me
Everywhere I go
I am spellbound
I will break the spell you put on me

Velvet drapes, glowing candles
Silent whispers
Of words inside of my head
The nighttime comes – It waits for me
Leads me to
The ending of another day
I’m haunted

17. Closer (Acoustic) / 3:37 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Want to get closer, in too deep
Where there is something I wish for I’ll go through
Want to get closer into you
No hell to discover
I’ve got it all inside myself
Salvation you have preached is gone
No way, you can’t turn it around

Looking for a higher ground
Searching for this something missed before
From a higher ground
Will I fall in a right direction?
(Higher, searching for more)

Falling apart
There’s nothing real
That will convince me to change but I’ll go through
Want to get closer into you
No hell to discover
There is just nothing to betray
Salvation you have preached is gone
No way, you can’t turn it around

Looking for a higher ground
Searching for this something missed before
From a higher ground
Will I fall in a right direction?
(Higher, searching for more)

Looking for a higher ground
Searching for this something missed before
From a higher ground
Will I fall in a right direction?
(Higher, searching for more)

Looking for a higher ground
Searching for this something missed before
From a higher ground
Will I fall in a right direction?
(Higher, searching for more)

Looking for a higher ground
Searching for this something missed before
From a higher ground
Will I fall in a right direction?

18. Within Me (Acoustic) / 3:15 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Something about you that makes me feel bad
I wasn’t there when a thin line destroyed your soul
I search every corner
There’s nowhere to hide
How I feel ignorance
Sacrifice some days it’s harder
Let’s face it, it’s all about me
Deeply into your own

Deep within me
Life’s crawling and wasting my days
Another night gone and I know there will be another way
I’m leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye

Something about you will make me stronger
Now I’m aware when a man falls rebound, my fault
I search every corner
Just nowhere to hide
How I feel ignorance
Sacrifice some days it’s harder
Let’s face it, it’s all about me
Deeply into your own

Deep within me
Life’s crawling and wasting my days
Another night gone and I know there will be another way
I’m leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye

Here I wanna be
No more lies!

Deep within me
Life’s crawling and wasting my days
Another night gone and I know there will be another way
I’m leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye

19. Survive (Live) / 3:48 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Sometimes I feel alone in a million crowd
an outsider wandering alone without
any words to say
they can’t explain
the desire to overcome the pain
feel the breath that’s always getting away
Am I dreaming it all?
I will never be afraid

I’ll survive in this nothing, leading nowhere
I survive, feeling strong for how much longer?
I’ll survive in this nothing, leading nowhere
I survive

A voice inside of me
that keeps on teasing
as sweet as like a whisper from the lips of pain
and so many steps that I can’t make
I can’t take the chance, release the brake
and the breath just keeps on getting away
Am I dreaming it all?
I will never be afraid

20. I'm Not Afraid (Live) / 3:35 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Watch your back
because I am coming closer – shivers down your spine
you were not expecting me – how does it feel
to be faced in your territory? – are you afraid to see me here?

I’m not afraid – to take my time, to live my life
the way I want to
I’m not afraid
to take you down and live my life as I want to
I’m not afraid

Closer but apart
no one else can hear us
get out of that car
did you wanna leave without me?
how does it feel to be faced in your territory?
are you surprised to see me here?

21. I Wont Tell You (Live) / 3:54 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

I cannot tell you you’re falling apart
open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
but I won’t tell you, I won’t tell you

I can’t leave this, I am fine inside it
I don’t feel bliss and I just keep hiding
I’ve been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
sometimes naked truth is what I don’t believe in

I cannot tell you you’re falling apart
open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
but I won’t tell you, I won’t tell you
I cannot get so deep into this now
I can’t admit that I know what I know and
I want to tell you your love is a lie
I won’t tell you I won’t tell you

It’s hard to hear through the static again
it’s never clear untill the rush of pain
I’ll never tell you I’m living a lie
in this confusion I feel alive
I’ve been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
sometimes naked truth is what I can’t believe in

don’t ever tell me I’m falling apart
don’t ever tell me I will not survive
don’t ever tell me this love is a lie
cause I’m the lie, I’m the liar

22. Tightrope (Live) / 4:25 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Delighthing minds
with my shadow
rely on your way to grow
you want to decide
from your cloud
you’re lost in a world
that I have to repair

You want it all
the greatest smile
who wants to deny forever?
you’re made of ice
I pay the price
for all your unforgiveness

Enlighting lies
with my shame
beneath the veil
of your flow
don’t try to deny
with your mouth
so fine it is knowing
you’re under the shade

23. Fragments of Faith (Live) / 4:20 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

It’s not the way to cross the faith
The promise has been broken
My disease, everlasting
Let me bleed forever
I have to wait
Come and get me
Lost in here, I’m nothing
Tie my hands
Let me feel alive one more time

Where is the pain?
Somewhere down

Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?
Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?

My halo fades
Sin is calling
The promise has been stolen
My disease, everlasting
Let me dream forever
My soul to take
Come and get it
Lost in here, I’m nothing
Tie my hands
Let me feel alive one more time

Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?
Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?

Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?
Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?

Never let it go…

Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?
Can you feel it?
Don’t you know there is no time?

24. The Game (Live) / 3:41 (On 2010 Deluxe Edition)

Will I just tell you to give up?
No matter how you’ll play this game
But I can handle the sorrow
Whatever time is running out

You wonder why
Our last goodbye
It’s relieving my tears, it’s so easy
I won’t deny
Life changed my mind

Will I be such a dreamer?
No matter how I’ll play this game
To get is symptom of giving
Whatever time is over now

You wonder why
Our last goodbye
It’s relieving my tears, it’s so easy
I won’t deny
Life changed my mind

You wonder why
Our last goodbye
It’s relieving my tears, it’s so easy
I won’t deny
Life changed my mind